More of me, 2005-10-18, 06:38
Today when we dropped off P. I found out that last night she had
her dog put down. I was shocked as she'd never mentioned that he was sick
and we'd seen him just yesterday when we picked up P. When I got back into
the car, I mentioned it to D. and we tried to figure out why (M. had just
said it was a long story and she didn't want to talk about it). Perhaps he
was sick and we didn't know. Perhaps he got hit by a car. Perhaps he bit
one of the kids yesterday after we left. I don't know.
I wonder will P. realize that the dog is gone. They didn't have much
interaction, but did have some. P. knew him. Luckily for us we don't need
to explain to him about death. For him, people being in your life one
minute and gone the next is normal. Time has little meaning for him unless
it's time waiting to get his straw cup, get fed or time with toys. When we
leave nanny and poppys house saying 'we'll be back in a week' doesn't mean
anything to him. So right now, death doesn't either. Which is good. I
wonder how the other parents with older children fared with this.
Outside of those wonderings, things are good. We're starting to wean P.
and it's HARD. The goal right now is to get him to sleep through the night
with no milk. He wakes up once to feed during the night and occasionally
wakes up when we go to bed. Last night I got him to go back to sleep when
he woke up when we went to bed - I went to sleep quite proud of myself!
However, his middle of the night feeding was a feeding and not a comfort
time. He goes 'ah, ah, ah!' like he's in pain and it's so hard to deny him
what I have right there. But it has to be done. First we start with the
night feeding and then I have to try to stop feeding him to sleep. Harder
than you'd imagine.
Past all of that, things are good around here. We're just paddling
along and enjoying the ride, for the most part. Friday my cousins are
coming over to my parents house to celebrate a graduation that was a long
time coming. One of my cousins finally got his degree, after many years of
trying. This is a testament to not only persistance, but also how hard it
is to finish a degree when you're working full time and doing your courses
by distance. I'm very proud of him. He and his sister and one of their
brothers will be partying out at my parents house, along with the brothers
girlfriend, his two kiddies, my aunt and uncle and my parents. I think P.
is going to have a wonderful time running around and showing off his toys
to everyone. It'll be a fun night.
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