Fear, 2005-10-25, 8:41 p.m.
I worry sometimes about my future relationship with P.
I worry that I'm going to do something to mess it up.
I worry that he'll cut me out of his life.
I worry I'm going to lose my little boy.
I worry I'm crazy because I have lots of time to mess him up and if I look at the example my parents set for me with me, but also with my brother, then I know that families can have good relationships.
I'm just scared sometimes.