Slut part one, 2002-07-11, 6:45 a.m.
I wrote an entry yesterday morning. It was a We have brains entry regarding sluts. I wrote about my experiences, opening up a little.
When I came back from dropping D. off, I deleted it. I felt I'd left myself exposed. That I'd opened a box that I really wanted closed. It's not like I said a whole lot, but what I said, I wasn't comfortable with saying.
As stated before, the topic was sluts. I'm not sure how to define a slut. To me, if I feel I have to resort to calling a person a slut then they are acting sexually without it appearing to be their choice as a way to gratify their needs. Instead they are doing it to gratify the needs of others and are not sure what it is that they are doing. I think that if a girl enjoys her sexuality and is a sexual person, fine. No slut there. If a girl does it not for herself but to attract attention, gratify someone elses fantasies without caring about her own or because they think that's the only way they can be a person, then it is sluttish and not good. I hesitate calling this behaviour a slut behaviour as there are so many other issues at play there.
I think I need to consider this a bit more now that I've taken it from the personal to the impersonal and general...
But, until then: